Sunday, May 17, 2009
Emotional Day
Do you ever have Sundays when you are so emotional and you can't stop crying? I had one today. I am still crying and I know why I am, but it is hard to explain. Sometimes I feel supported by the Lord and other times I feel....well, let down. I know the Lord knows my needs but do other people? Bishop Brown wants to meet with me today, I am nervous about it. I am grateful for Adam in my life. He has always been able to give me wonderful advice. Today he just hugged me and let me cry......then he listened to me. It was just what I needed. We got a new Relief Society Presidency today, I am excited and happy for all of the women involved. I am sure they must feel overwhelmed. I did notice the girls that got released and they seemed to be let down. I noticed a bittersweet sadness about them today. I was able to talk to them and I did feel bad for them. I know it is hard to get released from a calling you love, and be called to something you don't love. I am grateful that I have a love for people and their feelings. Although it is hard to cry all 3 hours of church and have people see me at my worst, I am grateful for the connection I have with people. I worry for others and I get sad for others. It is a raw, personal place to be but I am grateful. I am exhausted from crying!
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Hi Kati~ Thanks for sending me the info on your blog. I just read your last two entries and I guess my reply is now outdated, but I appreciate all that you were saying. First, about small changes, I totally relate to that and have felt that way too. I am so proud of your small choices - they really are all we can change, I think. About your crying binge on Sunday, I know if I let the tears go I can flood a room too! That's what we all love about you! But it is a drain! I hope you continue blogging - I love hearing how you feel (since my kids don't share that much!) and I hope you are at peace with your calling and the changes in your life in general. I've finally learned that life will never stop changing! Thanks for sharing and I love you for that and everything you do and are!
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